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Thursday, August 6, 2009

1st post in aug

Woah, busy life. Well, that's jc life for most of us. Glad to say that life in jj is colourful. So yar.
Overseas Experimental Learning Trip (OELP). Got the forms for the goldcoast GP. Actually I'm more interested in the Yun Nan one. Because I probably won't have another chance to go there. Yeah. And it majors in CIP. I want to accumulate more good karma? Not that I've been doing bad to other people, but its nice to put smiles on others' faces yeah.
But... My parents worry so much about safety etc. Yeah, know that they are concerned about me. But hell, CAN YOU GUYS STOP DEPRIVING ME OF WHAT I WANT??? First is my damned DSLR. Been on my wishlist for 3 years already. The WTH fact is that I got enough cash in the bank to get one. I don't even have a dummy camera pls!! Then was guitar lesson. Its ok, I can do it next year after my A levels. And I am so gonna get a brand new yamaha guitar. Last year there was a shanghai trip. And a Chengdu trip. Both weren't successful cuz I didn't ask hard enough. As well as the Aust trip 2 years back. This time, I am so going to get it. I am so fed up with this safety thing. C'mon, I'm gonna be 17. What the hell do you want?! SCREW THIS DEPRIVATION!!!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!

it's 9:13 PM now

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Woah, seems like I haven't been blogging for quite some time. No time to blog. And besides, I'm quite lazy to do so. I think I ought to change my blogskin someday; its far too innocent for the content of my posts.
Common tests are almost over, leaving GP paper2. I've kind of decided to quite choir. I'm tired of stressing myself up for understanding the notes. Though I will miss the satisfaction from singing with the choir after figuring my way out from the 'beansprout maze'. Still, whatever happens in the future, I'll never deny that I was once from JJ choir.
Nexus is getting kind of heavy these days. I'm glad that we are doing something though. However, the progress is just far too slow that I just can't sit still. I'm referring to the publicity actually. It should have been done earlier. But my committee is facing problems as well. An example would be the lessons thing. Poor Ching Yee is literally harrassed by the vendors. C'mon, we are merely enquiring, so what's the big idea on sending us the contract and bugging us for a reply?
Kind of miss shooting though I've been there officially, once.
Going to start running next week. Like finally. Hope that it doesn't crash with my promos. According to Yu Xuan, it doesn't. Well yeah. Gotta get NYAA silver over and done with.
Ventures... I can't stand the rate at which we are moving. Its far too slow for my liking. But I can't do anything constructive even if I really want to; I'm a pure nubcake in this aspect pls.
My studies... The results... I deserve it. Can't blame no one except myself yeah.
Satisfaction from completing 35roses for cousin Huiqi to give her colleagues when she left yesterday. Anyway, she claims that she owe me 2 meals. Haha! The roses are really made with sweat and pain. I twisted the wires with my fingers. As a result, my palms got sweaty. xp Was uber happy when cousin told me that roses were popping up in all directions in the office because they were too pretty. Haha!
Lastly, condolences to the Jackson family. Its kind of late actually. But anyway, a tribute to the King of Pop will be up soon. Watched the thriller MV last night. Was totally amazed by MJ's dance moves. They were slick and clean. A wow factor. Such a pity that I truly admire him only when he is laid down to rest. I was always a fan of his moonwalk. And... MOONWALK WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN. Hail the King of Pop!

it's 10:40 PM now

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

This time, I do not have to make a choice. You pointed a dagger to my back and sent me out to be exiled. I’ve been, partially liberated. I am now away from you. Yet my dignity has suffered. What I want to shout out is “You made me assume this post, and caused me to lose something else which I ought to have gotten. I paid a dear price for it all because of your senseless ruling.” I shall, one day, avenge for myself. Warrior, this is only the beginning; the best, is yet to be.
To the people reading, I feel that my recent posts sounds very self-indulging. Well, I need to avoid being tangled in more fights. Hence the result.
Went to Ajisen for lunch today with my JJ Nexus Corporate Committee. I managed to finish my bowl of noodles! Whoo hoo! What an accomplishment! *gives myself a pat on the back* Was suppose to go out with Cousin Huiqi today. But hell, my mum didn’t allow me. Though she gave in before I went for meeting, I didn’t have the mood to go out to enjoy myself. So sorry Cousin! *Hugs* God, I have to buy and complete the cross stitch for Wanling! Her birthday is coming!! Argh! Shouldn’t have promised her. xp Oops. To Hong Yang, your present is rotting in my bag soon! =0 To Peifang, I have so many things to tell you, but I don’t dare to call you. Haha. With that entire power struggle, it’s a wonder how you stayed on for such a long time.

it's 10:56 PM now

Monday, June 22, 2009

Despicable

I’m damned. I thought I could resign gloriously. But hell, no. It is indeed a really dark place to be. This is a place, where to the outside world, accumulated filth is akin to snow, the smell of spring is the unforgiving stench that will always remain, and those blood sucking bugs appear to be little innocent flora. Beautiful isn’t it? How mighty of you to claim that, a decade ago, you could persuade the people to take part in the activities, whereas now, teens these days won’t listen; how would you know if you don’t bother to try? When you even tell them that they have a choice as to whether they want to attend the activity or not; “You want to come, you come, don’t want to come, its ok. I won’t force people.” When this sentence comes out of your mouth, it just gives the mentality to people that ‘Yeah, I just don’t have to go.’ At the end of the day. Who suffers? The exco. The exco will never be loyal to you. Why? To the fact that you’ve just bestowed me 2 cups of poisoned wine. No way out at all. The replacement of exco with a snap of your fingers just creates a greater rift between the exco and the members. You just don’t treasure the top brass. Shortly after the knowledge of an irresponsible lower rank exco, you made her resign from her post. Then, you tell me about it. The way you wanted to make me see, is that yeah, see, she doesn’t do her job, she’s off. But, in my opinion, it just tells me that you are merely silencing the lower officials to shut the top brass. What a despicable act. If I resign like that, it means that I just ain’t capable enough to stay in this war. And you can proudly hold my detached head and ask the rest “who’s next?” But if I do, I’ll be liberated. Liberation or dignity? It’s a hard choice.

it's 12:56 PM now

Hong Yang: Man.. Get well soon and mug!! Haa.. Apologies to scaring you. But hey, its serious ok!

Cousin Huiqi: Baby, we rule! Yeah! Hope that we can chat like that again. After my promos I guess. Haha! *Behold the arched ones who shall bestow the drop of unspeakables to whom crosses its path!* Sometimes I think that I should be a lit student. Haha!

Zhuqing and Peifang: Realisation dawned on me just last Friday that both of you were from Nanhua high and were from choir. Which ultimately leads to both of you knowing each other. xp I miss you both! XDD

it's 12:50 PM now

Friday, June 19, 2009

Realisation

I guess, there is no point in me staying where my heart does not belong. I will resign tomorrow. I'd like to express my thanks to the following people: Rachel, Zhuqing, Hong Yang, Cousin Huiqi and Denise. Yeah people. Thanks for showing me the light. All of us share different perspective, yet similarities still do surface. I've just have had time to think through. And I guess, this is probably the one solution. Yeah, no point hanging on to where my heart does not stay. It is time for me to realise that exco is not everything. People don't die because they are not in exco. I'm tired of fighting to hang on to something that ain't worth my time. So here I am. I want to announce to the whole world that I am finally free. But warrior, the battle, has barely started...

it's 7:13 PM now

Outrageous

This is outrageous. You forced me to join this CCA; I didn’t have a choice. You wanted me to assume this post; I never had the intention to. You promised me the post; yet it wasn’t given to me until I enquired. You told me that there would be no clashes with other activities; but eventually, there are many. You told me not to have an exco post in other CCAs; fine, I didn’t. You said that it is all right to not attend everything; I made use of this privilege at times. Now that I have carried out my duties, you want me out. Just because a mere member lodged a complaint against me for not being able to attend this retreat? Indeed, there are some events where I was absent. Such as the Youth Partner Briefing on 29April; I had SYF practice at Victoria Concert Hall. It is obvious which one I should go. EP course; I attended the last module of the day due to CSL investiture emceeing. My mistake to not have realized that the dates clashed. Yesterday, the prep for youth retreat; my mum had to attend to a funeral, leaving me to take care of my grandmother with Alzheimer’s disease. Filial piety, most respectfully, is not a crime. Today, the youth retreat. It is my regret to not be able to attend. However, I attended the morning session. I had to study for my DUA exam that is tomorrow. There’s no route for failure this time. Only success. This is my safety net for my ‘A’ levels; a net which I must weave meticulously.

it's 2:27 PM now